So it seems I have a problem: I can't zzzzzzleeep!
Is this the slow deterioration of our bodies after thirty?! Has it begun?!?!?!?! If you find "REDRUM" anywhere on my blog, please send the rescue to my house. Well, that's for cabin fever, but I'm sure insomnia has some similar Hollywood-made-up effects.
I don't think this has ever happened to me before, at least not for such an extended period of time. Honestly, I can't quite remember the last time I went beddy bye at a decent time without the aid of some herbal tea or over-the-counter sleepy pills. Lately I feel tired all day and it's hard to do all that needs to get done. Whine whine whine... I know. But wait! There's more...
It has to be the stress, but I don't necessarily feel stressed. I mean, I'm not sweating cold and my heart is beating at a rather normal rate. I eat normally and I have yet to yell this month at the awful woman who likes to patrol the laundry room in my condo: "you didn't clean the lint filter thoroughly enough, young lady!"
Grad school applications and test deadlines are coming up next month and my tummy does hurt just writing about it. But I have SO much help and support from friends that I can't imagine why my body is not processing all of this accordingly. In South America they call this "drowning in a glass of water." What in the world is wrong with me? Plus, I'm happy to report my grad school writing sample is almost complete and it's actually not too shabby!
On a side note, I never got around to watching District 9, but I did rent The Soloist. At one point Robert Downy Jr. cries his eyes out and wishes he was half as passionate about anything as Nathaniel (Jamie Foxx) is about music. I think I heard the heavenly choir sing! :) Great movie and a good reminder: follow your bliss! Honestly, it made me want to pick up my clarinet and start playing again. But one blissful goal at a time (and yes, I went to band camp...).
Oh, and thank you Mr. Prez for reminding our kiddies to be cool and stay in school. Anyone, especially one of such worldly influence who didn't always have it all served on a silver platter, reminding us about the importance of education is a VERY good idea no matter what your political beliefs are.
Now if I could only catch some zzzzz's tonight...
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"What in the world is wrong with you?" Nothing, seems there's just more on your mind than you realize.
Have you ever thought of posting some of your academic work on your blog? I'd be quite interested in reading some excerpts.
Agreed, Obama's story truly is an inspiration.
You really DID go to band camp? That's hilarious, I was just joking when I made reference to that earlier.
Barry
PS: Can't sleep huh? That reminds me.... what does a dyslexic agnostic insomniac do? Stays up all night wondering if there really IS a Dog.
Oh I hope you can get some sleep soon. I hate when I get an insomnia bout. I've had some bad ones and they are never fun.
Hey Shane, I beat you to first post. Owned! lol :)
eeek insomnia, not fun, dont fight it tho, go zen.
Read a book, listen to some quiet music but dont lie in bed tossing and turning, it ends up stressing you out, and yes LOL it does get worse past 30!
But the good news is this...nothing lasts...which means you have to have normal sleep patterns return sooner rather than later :)
hang in there
xxsm
Barry... that was hilarious! Thanks you: "what does a dyslexic agnostic insomniac do? Stays up all night wondering if there really IS a Dog." is my new Facebook status. And yes, four years of band camp babbbyyyy (all the stories are true... j/k!)
Shane, where are you??!?!?!?! You're going to let Barry talk to you this way?
Thanks Debbie - this stinks but sweetmango is right, this has to pass. I'm glad for that reminder!
Sweetmango - I'm definitely going zen and starting up my nightly meditations. I usually do them in the morning, but I think my mind needs the rest before bed.
Oh the joys of insomnia. I've been dealing with that for a while now. Finally got some handy dandy rx pills that do the trick. Life sucks when you are sleep deprived. Hope we both sleep well tonight!!
Oh dear... Sweet dreams dear CeCe. Hope indeed we sleep well:)
You have too many irons in the fire. I know the feeling when I lay down and my mind is racing about things I need to do, should have done and whats going own in my world. It's natural. My therapist told me to clear my mind and count down from 20. If my mind starts to wonder start over at 20. I have done it several times and don't remember reaching zero too many times. I have been overlooking The Soloist at the video place but now I will watch it. District 9 is an awesome movie with great special effects. What else would you expect when Peter Jackson is involved? I can't wait for The Hobbit to come out.
PS..And one time at band camp...
A good alternative to OTC sleep pharmae is Melatonin. One gram and you'll be out like a light bulb in no time flat.
Whenever I'm in my insomniac mode, I'll have some natural tea. Chamomile or peppermint usually does the trick. They say warm milk is a good home remedy but I'm lactose intolerant. lol
And about turning 30, baby, it's all good! =) So don't stress it. You got enough on your plate already.
Shane... your therapist is very right. That actually works very well. The BFF had recommended the counting.
Mr. Lion thank you for your visit:) I heard about the melatonin and I'm going to pick some up just in case. I think I'm working through some of my fears and what I think it's really keeping me up. I really appreciate the advice!