There you have it... my grad student ID in all its glory. A mug shot that declares my undeniable status as president of nerdville and proof that I'm no longer making up excuses not to go out with you. I will in all actuality... be rather busy. I just downloaded the reading list for my three courses and it includes about thirty books I'll have to digest in three months. THIIIIIIIRRRRRTY. THREE-ZERO. Yes, that's 10 books a month and about 3 per week. I already miss you, my sweet sweet tivo.
But this is it, right?! This is what I wanted! A chance to study and read and teach and change the world!
***Sigh***
Then why is it so stomach-turning scary?
Because of change is scary and I'm all kinds of insecure that I'll be the one person in class who hasn't read the one book everyone is talking about and dissecting line by line. Because I still have to work and pay for my existence since my yearly scholarship stipend might just cover the cost of coffee for the year. And because a new routine awaits and I have no clue how all the pieces of my life will coexist.
But they will... right? They HAVE to....
Insecurities creep up on me like fungus.
But I'm here now and there's no going back... I've got a full scholarship to back me up and a solid supply of big girl panties to get me through the tough times.
Let us never forget the words of the brilliant Friedrich Nietzsche:
When a woman turns to scholarship there is usually something wrong with her sexual opportunities
... wait... WHAT?!
Hey Cindy!!Congratulations.. so happy for you.. I am sure you'll do super duper awesome in school.. so don't be insecure one bit..
Thanks girlie!!!! I'm totally stressing... I went to school yesterday and took the ID picture and finished registration and found the reading book list... It's soooo intimidating! Thanks for good thoughts my friend:)))
Nerda buena!
Oh and Nietsche also said "when you go to a woman, go with the whip"..Bertrand Russell commented on this by saying "but 9 out of 10 women would have gotten the whip away from him...and he knew it"...
Gracias Patricio!!! Tu eres un super nerdo muy bueno tambien!
... and there you have it... random Patrick knowledge of random things at its best!
AWESOME.
Bravo! And you are just the person to climb this final hurdle. Something tells me you will "devour" those books like it's nothing.
Congratulations Cindy!!
Matty you rock - thanks! I need all the encouragement in the world! :))))
The quote LOLOL ....that is NOT why im studying!!...or is it eeek!
This is great news and you will love it. Im proud of you for following your heart <3
xxm
I don't know Michelle... it's all adding up... maybe Nietzche was on to something here...
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!
And thank you:) I'm kind of proud of me too!
I'm crazy-proud of you Cindy. Then again, I have been since the day I found you.
I don't know if you see just how much you've grown over the past year, but there was a time in the not-too-distant past that you didn't share your insecurities as freely as you do. Proof your supply of big-girl panties is fully stocked.
I hope you got at least a few pairs of frilly ones. I mean, Nietzsche was a fucking genius and everything, but you still may bump into Hendric at the supermarket...
PS: love you always.
Yeah.... I guess I might as well face up my own craziness and share it with you all:)
And no worries, for every big girl panty, I've got a pair to drive Hendric CRRRRRAZY... HA! ;-p
CONGRATULATIONS!!! That's so awesome. I'm really happy for you!
Thanks girlie! I'm super excited!
Congratulations. I'm pleased for you too.
All the best, Boonsong
Good luck this semester! Totally understand you on the whole "change" thing. You're going to do great!
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh thanks! ;-p
congratulations, Cindy. this is good news.
so now you will have more time to write here and show your talents.
i am happy for you dear and proud of my younger sister/friend
keep up the spirit.
Wow! A full ride? Congrats to you, Cindy! You'll do just fine. I think it's natural to worry, but once you get into the rhythm, you'll fly. :-)
- Corra
Thanks Hebba! You're so sweet:) I appreciate the good thoughts! I'm hoping I'll have time to blog... the schedule seems very daunting! *fingers crossed*
Hi Corra! Thanks for stopping by. I'm hoping to catch on quickly! :)))
good luck and have fun in your new adventure, Cindy! Thanks for visiting me at Wonder Wifey (it's all mediocre now boohoo...but I think I'm bouncing back...I think..hahha). I'll be back here. Thanks for spreading sunshine always!