I ache for balance.
After spending a month in Chile I realize that I’m a
certifiable extremist. It’s like shades of gray escape me. Alas! Nothing like a
long vacation to reflect on life, love, and how awful Hugh Laurie sounds dubbed in
Spanish. Awful…!
I tend to either write write write or write nothing at all.
Eat the same avocado/tomato sandwich for weeks until the thought of another
veggie makes me want to burn down the crops. I either date date date or practically
join a monastery or stay home with my books and my stories. I wear the same
shoes over and over although I have more pairs than my bank account can handle.
And I’ve sincerely come to the conclusion that none of these shenanigans do
anyone any good.
This year I strive for balance.
I’m finishing up my masters in English Literature in a few
months… can’t even believe it myself. I’m looking into PhD programs all over
the country and wondering if I can actually do this. And I’m still teaching college writing and I STILL love it. Yes yes
yes I do and hopefully it’ll stay that way.
My last trip back home was emotional… meant to reconnect, reflect,
and maybe even apologize. This time around it was exciting and in its own
twisted way somehow enlightening. I’ll be telling you bits and pieces. Human
nature never ceases to amaze me.
Balance…starting right now.
Work, schedules, books, ideas, lessons
all week… come the weekend... let the warm Miami nights tell my story... Cheers!
I totally feel the same...my life seems to be all or nothing. Thanks to therapy (big, huge fan of therapy!) I have started to find new ways of thinking of and experiencing life. I am slowly finding that balance, though I think it will always take effort for me.
Congrats on being so close to finishing your MA! That's so awesome. I won't finish mine until Summer 2013...and then I want another master's degree (in education for the second one) before I jump into the flames of a PhD. I'll be watching your journey looking for inspiration. Go Cindy!
I nearly fell flat on my ass when I saw you show up here again Miss Cindy, what a happy surprise!
I think most of us are like this to an extent. I'm realizing I am. It wasn't that long ago that words were coming to me fairly easily, lately it's an effort to produce a poem. Not that I'm pressuring myself, but I do find it interesting.
I tend to get excited about something and go at it with enthusiasm, only to move onto something else later and almost forget about it. Life is indeed about balance, but I'd rather be passionately obsessive than monotonously vanilla.
Thank so much Ann Marie. I appreciate you stopping by! I thought about the MA in education as well... But I'm aching to teach higher level courses and need the PhD for it. I'm huge fan of therapy as well. I really believe the world would be a better place if we all spoke to an unbiased party every other month or so... I'll keep searching for my balance. Glad to know there are others out there joining me in the quest:)!
I feel ya, Barry. I decided that unless I really felt like saying something, then writing on here wasn't good. As soon as it became a "chore" then what's the point? Love the vanilla quote! :) I rather be ANYTHING but vanilla... the horror!!!!